I’m reflecting on the time I really wanted to started making videos, it was about 13 years ago. At the time I just wanted to have a website where I could post my videos. I couldn’t afford a camera, but my friend coincidentally bought a professional camera which he didn’t mind lending it to me. After so much struggle to figure it out and failed, I just winged it and shot some videos, except I didn’t know how to edit, so I took the camera back to its owner, as at the time I was busy with studies too, hence I didn’t pursue the dream further for some time.

The yearning to shoot videos never died. I remember later, while busy with entrepreneurship, a job, and studies, I still wanted to bury myself with more work in doing what I love, that is, making videos, but I thought it would be better if I hire someone, so, in 2018 I hired someone to do the shooting and editing, boy oh boy! I did not expect it to be so expensive. I knew it will take time for people to subscribe on my channel, to a point where YouTube would be paying me. Conversely, I was very broke at that time, because of starting a business. Hence, I had to park that video making idea again. 

At this point, I decided to do research and learn about editing, as well as using my phone to shoot. After shooting and posting some couple of recipe videos, I felt like they were not representing who I am or my desires. It felt like I was just doing it for the sake of doing it. So, I decided to search myself and reflect more on what I really wanted, not what others think I should do. People who know me asked me to talk and show my face on my videos, I did a voiceover on one video, later I realised it wasn’t what I wanted. Moreso, I personally lose interest in YouTube videos where people talk unless it’s for studies or a movie. 

Although I understand that we should “please” viewers for what we do, however, I strongly believe that, after listening to what’s said on the right and left, everything must come from who we are. Otherwise, we will lose ourselves.

I love food, cooking, baking, and nature, so I thought about how to incorporate these things in subtle and/or vivid ways to create a layback and relaxing atmosphere. Of course, these mean different things to different people, with that said, my videos with the selection of the music I choose, are my interpretation of having a time to relax, reflect and to be able to switch off from the noise (whatever that is).

I must confess, that some of the times I don’t know what I’m doing when editing, however, I like the process of learning and being besides myself to learn a new skill and developing.

I hope one or two people relate and get to relax.

Thank you for watching!